I told my heart I didn't want you but I lied.
For the fear of rejection, I kept my love inside.
(:

I'm on the phone with _ now, damn idiotic moronic bitch. (Yknow I don't mean it :D) Fucking tiring day, worse day ever! Slept @ 3plus 4am last night. Was doing my lit work while Pert called & we talked. Hung up, Zaeron called after awhile. Talked till she got tired & hung up. She called, so we talked till 3plus. Kept tossing & turning, & I keep seeing the scars..

(Whatever Glynis, whatever.)

I hope you're feeling better after pouring out. You know who you are & I don't wanna mention your name here for some reasons, for your good & perhaps mine. I hope everything will be fine for you & her, I hope things would work out, really. I pray that she's still right next to you whenever you need her, she's still the one you wanna hold no matter what happens. I hope nothing goes wrong between you two, I know you both would work out. You've found your happiness & well, as your friend, I'm overjoyed for you. Exams are nearing & please, for the sake of yourself, study hard & take care of yourself. Love!

With three hours or even less of sleep, I got to school with that pair of fugly eyes. Ohwell. Hymn-singing again,. Above All is nice & it's on download now :D Heh. Zaeron texted me this morning, comforted me & all. Thanks my dear! Chem test was allright. PE was fun. We were damn crappy or rather, I was damn crappy. I was feeling crappy, I want to be crappy. Ahhh, maths was allright luh. Did Paper I again. Quite tough, hopefully I can get good grades. Ahwell, although it's just a test, I gave in my best. (It rhymes!) Recess was allright. Stayed in Mrs Soon's homeroom & talked to the rest. I was trying to recall the dancesteps but no, I can never remember. I got horrid STML. >:( -frowns English was damn fucking bullshit, really fucking shit. Mrs Soon asked those who wanna pay attention to move in front while the rest stay behind. Damn whatever la okay. I stayed behind but I still paid attention to her. [: Damn lazy to move. Hm after English was Lit. Fucking boring, as usual. What's new man? I got 16/25 for that assignment we did last week :D Not the best but I improved! Heh. And Miss Yeo said I still need to improve on my English. Hahaha I know it's bad but I'm trying right! :D Had Australian English paper. I just anyhow shade & went to sleep immediately. Heh.

After the paper finished, cabbed home. [: Too fucking tired to walk & too afraid to be alone so I simply ignore that rule of mine. Showered, ate a little & off to do my Art. Now it's almost done. 6plus,dad came home & we went to Aunt's place [: Godma finally came, I missed her. Aunt Helen is damn.. Don't know how to describe her please. -.- Pearlyn was damn cuteeeee! Haha. Went home around 815 & continued with my work. Mom helped me & we kept fooling around. Hahaha. She's damn funny la. She used a lot of bluetacs please! Haha 'cos Grandpa owns a rubber plantation so I was like "Mummy, even if ahgong owns a rubber plantation, THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO WASTE IT!" Haha & she kept laughing. [:

Remember I said I feel like I'm happier? Tday I wanna take back those words & start crying instead. >:'( I've been saying so much, telling Pru to pretend & move on when she's going through almost the same thing as I do but I don't apply all that I've said to her to myself. I'm so jaded.

The scratch marks are becoming blueblacks! Like strip kinds. And it reminds me of.. Zebra!! >:'( -cries OHOHOH! & I GOT MY SONG ALREADYYYYY [: REJOICE EVERYONE, REJOICE! Um, it's This Love by Alicia Pan. YAY! :D

"Glynis."
"Uh yeah..?"
"I love you."
"Huh why suddenly say that?"
"Remember that I love you ok."
"Huh.. Orh."

Unfeeling.


There's Piano exam tmr. Please pray me, everyone. I hope I'd do well. And I'm skipping school tmr. I'm damn tired & I'm not ready to hand up my Art yet & I plan to study @ home & bullshits @ school are.. Indescribable. >:(

Goodnight, cruel world.
I don't wanna see you tmr.

I imagine the two of us together, but I've been living in reality.
<3.

11:34 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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